Today , wasn't my day . Just my luck .
I had enough ! My moodswing is getting from bad to worse .
Now at this point in time , i feel like slapping anyone who provoked me .
Only everyone's asleep .
Cried .
For no reason . I just felt so angry , i wanted to cry .
Then , the tears has never stopped .
I hadn't cried like this for years .
I felt better , maybe ?
Moodswing just suck to the core .
I dun know why i would have such extreme moodswings .
It's making me crazy .
When i have my moodswing ,
I will feel insecure . I felt like im invisible .
I felt no one cared ,
Like i has not appeared in anyone's life .
I will start hating myself .
I will think that im super useless .
Then the loneliness , even more insecure .
But tears are not always present .
Suddenly ,
I feel that i needed someone .
I needed a shoulder ,
I needed a listening ear .
Suddenly , i want someone to be always there for me .
Moodswing always turn me to be someone else .
Someone who's always on the dark side of life .
Someone who wishes to be dependent on someone who hasn't appeared , yet .
I hate to be emo in my post .
Sucky moodswing , damn .